5 Things Lockdown Made Me Realise

Are we still in lockdown? Or we out? Who even knows anymore.

Whilst we are all equally praying for normality, but equally used to the little bubbles we have constructed in our homes that are safe, cosy and actually quite nice, lockdown has been horrendous.

Like I said in my post on the changes I’m making on my Instagram, I could sit here and say lockdown has been the worst time of my life, but it also hasn’t.

Something that resonated with me pretty early on in lockdown was the quote ‘in the rush to return to normal, use this time to consider which parts of normal are worth rushing back to’.

I felt that.

Our lives are usually on a constant fast forward frame, we rush from one thing to the next. We eat when we can. We moan about having no time but end up binge watching Netflix for 6 hours and scrolling Insta for 2. We make plans to do things we don’t actually want to do and we often stay where we are and settle in fear of the unknown.

So, when lockdown came around…It gave me time to think and breathe for the first time in a while. It’s truly been the most eye opening 3 months of my life and I’m grateful for it in equal measure, and I’ll tell you why.

1. I love being outside

Pre lockdown, sure I used to go on the occasional walk, but during the winter I pretty much reserve all my activities for the gym, staying indoors or sipping a hot chocolate somewhere cute.

When you’re told you can literally only go outside for one walk. You go outside for that one walk. As time went on and as things were still very much shut, long walks and weekly sea swims became an absolute integral part of my routine.

Being outside has absolutely transformed how I feel. It’s no secret I’m an absolute sun worshipper, but even on those windy days, there’s nothing better than a coastal walk, matted hair and all. Ok. Maybe not the matted hair.

I’m almost ashamed that I didn’t have such a deep gratitude for the outdoor world before. Nature is completely free, walking is free, sea walks are free, and honestly, when I’m out swimming in the Plymouth sound, I sometimes stop, float on my back and just look up at the sky and think, ‘is this real life?’. It’s enjoying life in its truest form and it makes me so happy.

I can never not imagine incorporating this into my life post lockdown, it’s truly changed my outlook for the better.

2. I Won’t Be Returning To The Gym

In January and February I loved the gym. But did I really?

It’s a bit like being with someone and thinking they’re better than melted cheese on toast until you meet someone else and think, no, this is actually right.

I used to slog away in the gym 3 days a week. I didn’t particularly enjoy it, I thought I was seeing results in terms of muscle gain and it was a constant rush to be in my car by 6:30am every morning before work. It was exhausting, but I thought, this is what I need to do.

Post having what I believe was corona, I completely lost my fitness. I had breathing problems and my cough lasted over 5 weeks. I also lost complete motivation. It seems like post viral fatigue is an absolute thing, but I had lost complete enthusiasm for everything along with fitness. Anyone who knows me knows I am the complete opposite to this.

The only thing that reset how I was feeling was starting Courtney Black daily workouts. I have now purchased the app which works out at about £16 a month (half the cost of my gym membership), it has truly transformed me mentally, my body has never been in such amazing physical shape and I am truly loving keeping fit in the comfort of my own home, on my own terms and not having to deal with guys thinking they look cute lifting an 8Kg kettlebell.

I have truly loved home workouts and I’m so happy they fit so well into my busy life post lockdown. The thought that I no longer have to de-ice my car at 6:30am on a freezing winter morning is heaven. Now just to find myself a kettle bell which isn’t £1730027.

3. There’s Never A Right Time

There really is never a right time to do anything. The only right time to do something is to just take the jump and do it.

As lockdown went from days to weeks to months, the dizzying reality that a quarter of our year had literally flashed by within a blink of an eye was scary. Lockdown has made us have an appreciation for what ‘time’ really is.

The only thing that confines what we can achieve with our time and life is ourselves. Life can be cut short, we can spend 10 years with someone or doing something but wishing it was something else the entire time.

Stop waiting for the right time and just take that leap of faith and don’t ever look back.

4. Being Content

Lockdown has been the most mentally challenging time for pretty much everyone, and I’m no exception.

I’ve had days where I can’t do anything but sit and stare blankly at the TV and days full of so much happiness from just going on a walk.

Someone said to me that we need to stop look at ‘happiness’ as the end goal. What is happiness? We put so much pressure on ourselves to try and recognise what our happiness is and degrade ourselves when we don’t have it.

Instead of searching for ‘happiness’ for the best part of our lives, let’s look at being content. We know that some days are going to be good and some bad, but that doesn’t mean we have a bad life and it doesn’t mean it’s going to last forever. Being content is far more achievable, we experience it everyday even in the little things if we just choose to slow down and recognise it.

The perfect cup of tea. The pattering of rain against the window when we are cosy inside. Laughing out loud at an episode we have seen 108309 times before. Warm pastries. The white horses on the waves.

Let’s stop looking at happiness as getting on the property ladder, having the perfect partner and buying a pair of designer sunglasses. Let’s focus on being content in the moment, it’s the only form where there is longevity throughout the rest of our lives. We can all embrace and enjoy it.

5. Cutting Ties

I’m considering life post lockdown as a second life. It’s my fresh start and a chance to do things for me with ‘my people’. Lockdown has made me realise that the type of people I surround myself with on a daily basis is so important.

I know of many people in lockdown who have painfully cut away toxic relationships and friendships, having the strength to do that and say I deserve better than this is so hard. But the possibilities post that relationship are endless.

We are all deserving of so much more. The world needs so much more kindness and compassion. I see being kind as something that comes naturally. To be spiteful, nasty and horrible, to be a keyboard warrior or a troll actually requires energy. It requires taking time out of your day to do any one of those things and it’s sad and pathetic in equal measures, and for what?

Walking away from people that are affecting your life and happiness are things you will NEVER regret. Lockdown showed a lot of peoples true colours, so for that, it’s probably one of the best outcomes of lockdown. Cut ties with unnecessary people that are not worth your energy.

Lockdown you’ve been fun. But let us have our cute brunches, LVL and haircuts back now, yeh? What has lockdown taught you? Will you be making any changes to your life post lockdown?