We’re just finishing the second week of 2018, and I’m admitting it, I don’t have a clue what I want from 2018.
I felt so sure about my ambitious goals that I spent hours planning running up to the 31st. So much anticipation is spent leading up to the 1st, a new year, a new start where we’re all expected to have our shit together and know what we’re doing. But I don’t.
Everyone on Twitter seems to have already smashed their New Years resolutions and everyone’s already busy looking forward to that getaway they have booked for the summer. Me? I just spent the first week feeling miserable, withdrawn and disconnected from everything.
I mean, the lack of cake and general processed food aside could send anyone insane. But sometimes things just don’t go the way you want them to. Even if it is the first week of the year where we’re all led to believe it’s the make or break of the year. SHOCK. It isn’t.
The thing is, the big picture is that I don’t know what I want, and I don’t think it’s a quarter life crisis, although I really should be due one.
I had a lot of hiccups, brainwaves and barriers to break through last week. I also had a lot of time to think. What is it that I actually want from my life? The answer is, I don’t know.
All I do know is that I am going to open my arms willingly to change this year. 2017 was a comfort year, the year I didn’t move. I let the safety of comfort wrap around me and cocoon me so I couldn’t get out. Albeit nice, is that what I want?
I read a quote earlier this week which really rung true with me. ‘Comfort is the enemy of progress’. It was 100% the thing that I wanted to read on Sunday night. And that’s when I knew.
Planning to do lists, making big plans, working that career ladder in your early twenties is what we’re meant to do, right? Why do we have to have plans? Why can’t we wait and see what doors are opened in front of us? You need to take a step back and look in from the outside before you see those opportunities that could have been staring you in the face.
Why are we working so hard to please other people? Why don’t we take more risks?
Why are we staying put?
We’re a nation of staying putters. We’d rather a night in with Netflix than say yes to those spontaneous plans, our parents are the nation of people that stayed at the same job their whole life, and soon so will we.
WE’RE ALL BASIC MILLENIALS and we know it.
Whilst I’ll work towards my smaller goals for myself this year, I’m scrapping the rest.
I don’t want to be in this position in 6 months time and wonder why I’m still here and haven’t achieved the 56th resolution on my list. Neither do I want to compare myself to someone else with similar skills who got a job promotion and I didn’t.
Anxiety is a big card that gets unfortunately sprung for a lot of people who don’t like to be out of their comfort zone, and even I get that sometimes. I mean, I do. Why else would I still be here now? The world can seem scary from outside of what you know. But how do we know what awaits us if we don’t even try?
2018 is the year of doing. Doing those things you didn’t think possible or even expect to happen. That’s leaving the security of your job to travel the world and have the time of your life, ditching that job you hate and working for yourself, changing career because you can or speaking out about something because you deserve to be heard.
Even after writing this post I still don’t know what I want. But I’m open to change, open to new experiences and not making plans and booking holidays just so I have something to look forward to so I can wish every week before it away.
Let’s live in the moment, ditch the plans and just see where life goes this year whilst continuing to absolutely smash your personal goals for YOU.
It’s time to cut ourselves some slack, release that pressure and be content in the fact we don’t know what we want from life, and that’s totally ok.
Who else is turning their backs on their ‘big plans’ for 2018 and saying 2018 I’m ready for ya?
Jumper – Primark (similar from Vero Moda ASOS)
Skirt – ASOS
Boots – Miss Selfridge (similar from ASOS)
Bag* – Boohoo (old) Similar from ASOS
P.S. This skirt tho (*insert heart eye emoji*) – I’m still getting to grips with the image quality on WordPress so bear with me you wonderful bunch!